Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Gruesome Tiredness

You still wanna do many things but your body can only take so much. The changes in the office gave me mix of feeling. I feel like a Jedi going to a dark alley and the force is so strong that you cannot turn back. 

Should consistently reminding myself to keep silent whenever the body and mind not in a good state. The moment my mouth open... I will crash everything. 

Dear god give me strength #doadimediasosial 

Civil war meet expectations. Nothing more nothing less.

Manchester United hampeh ya amat losing to West Ham at Upton Park (last EPL game played before they move to Olympic stadium). If van Gaal can take the pressure why cant we right?; yes he got paid much better but remember who is the champion this season? Money is not everything. Secret donation dialu-alukan!

Senyum sikit. Stress tak ubah apa-apa pun

Sunday, April 10, 2016

2016. April

Both mommy and abah bit anxious while waiting for this month. Oh this is office related kinda stuff. Nevertheless none of it matters now. Time to move on. We are just glad both of us staying and still working at KL. 

We've been through so many kenduri and family bonding session. It's about the right time to focus on our little family for the rest of the year; e.g. Baju Raya color apa (eh sorted already except for you Amni), where to go (mommy dah rindu Europe or to be exact London- abah got to check on Airbnb), personal goals like completing full marathon and getting back to running for mommy, saving and generating income. In short actually it is to survive 2016.

Let's not forget Civil War end of this month! 😎

Amni and her favorite toy. Stay pretty princess, in and out 

Friday, March 18, 2016

Progress. 6mth

Hey Amni. You know what- your first clear word is ABAH! And it doesn't make mommy love you less.

We LOVE you to the max


Extra

That feel. Being at home. Both cinta hati are sleeping. And I'm not playing FIFA.

Kenduri not over yet. Memang kena physically prepare la this thing.

Catching up sleep/ rest is a must the week

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Cuti sekolah. Balik kampung

1991.

Hari berganti hari. Seperti kebiasaan sementara menanti cuti panjang begini, aku sibuk mencatat buku nota untuk countdown. Bukan itu yang hendak aku ceritakan. Ok kita fast forward cerita cliché macam ni. Aku duduk bersama datuk dan nenek di kampung memang suka semua ahli keluarga balik, bosanlah nak tunggu raya baru meriah. 

Budak sekolah, bila dah berkumpul ramai-ramai sepupu-sepapat aktiviti bersesuaian main galah panjang, bola sepak, kutip sekerap getah, combat pakai senapang kayu handmade, polis sentri. Itu kalau semua asal kampung lah, bila dah pelbagai background ni, diorang prefer main nyorok-nyorok. Aku main apa pun memang champion. Ini fakta. Sebenarnya aku dah pesan dekat Ajin pun bila Pak Ngah telefon confirm kan famili diorang balik tempoh hari; bawa balik nitendo. Tak juga bawa balik, hampeh. Kena la aku layan karenah 'budak-budak bandar' ni. Sepupu aku boleh tahan ramai, insist nak main aci nyorok hari tu. So aku volunteer 'jadi' dulu; aku kira diorang sembunyi. Kawasan rumah Atok memang luas, tipikal rumah kampung-pokok merimbun, belukar, parit, pondok, reban ayam. Senang cerita memang sesuai untuk game ni.

5-10-15-20... Seratus! Sambil mengira kedengaran tapak kaki bersepah sini sana. Adalah dalam 15 orang menyorok. Budak bandar, memang budak bandar, kurang pandai berdikari- nak menyorok pun berteman. Memang masak la. Aku memang familiar sangat dengan rumah Atok pun. "Hairil sep, Jijah sep, Emal sep, K'on sep" secara pukal aku 'matikan' diorang. Satu per satu aku sebut. Semua yang dah mati kena duduk depan beranda tunggu game habis. HQ tempat sep pokok kelapa depan beranda. Aku berdiri membelakangi HQ sambil mencongak head count- dah 16 orang. "Hmm boleh istihar menang.." getus hati kecil.

"CEPAT! CEPAT! CEPAT LARI! SEP! SEP! SEP..!!!" yang dah mati berteriak. Aku berpaling- nampak budak dalam 8 tahun berlari menuju ke HQ macam nak claim BR1M (tangan depa ke depan)- ok masa tu belum ada lagi tapi faham-fahamlah. 

Ikutkan keupayaan fizikal, aku lebih dari mampu dan sepantas Gaban untuk sep dan matikan dia. Masalahnya.. Aku tak kenal siapa nama dia ni dan anak siapa! Aku tahu dia memang saudara mara sekaligus melayakkan dia bermain. Akhirnya aku akur dan buat-buat terpaku di kedudukan sama sampai dia sep dan menyelamatkan yang lain- aku KALAH. Pasrah, next round aku cakap Wan pesan beli bawang kat kedai so tak boleh main dah. Dalam perjalanan tanpa tujuan (konon ke kedai), aku cuba recall siapa budak hingusan yang mencalarkan reputasi gemilang-Aripin kampung boy. Tak puas hati, balik aku tanya Atok.

Rupa-rupanya; Muhd Ikmal Aizi B Zainal Ghani- anak Mak Leha! Ini yang aku geram sangat. Mak Leha ni berapa tahun dah tak balik kampung-last aku tengok anak dia ni baby-baby lagi, itu pun nenek yang jaga time Mak Leha pantang bersalin. Memang la aku tak kenal! Atok cakap dia pesan kat anak-anak dia balik la kampung cuti ni, nak buat tahlil doa selamat. Dalam kepala Mak Leha dia ingat nak bahagi harta pusaka. Puaka betul! Dek kerana haloba dia, aku yang terpalit derita. Budak kecil, benda-benda ego, reputasi macam ni jauh lebih bernilailah. Ish.



 


Random

I don't believe in hidup kaya raya harta mewah melimpah ruah instead jadilah hidup yang sustainable dan mencukupi. Am so afraid of breaking point tbh.


Saturday, January 23, 2016

Microsoft Lumia

Huggggeee step taken! 

Bukan senang. Susah nak justify ni. Not a good time tho. Argh apa benda ko buat ni. Last year (dah setahun pending!) when my iPhone failed on me-tetiba crash and lost everything especially  pictures, all gone!- almost nak beli Lumia mid-range dah. About 2 years ago I decided my next phone cannot be androids (never was a fan). And apple kalau harga melampau rip-off; true enough, dengan spec up sikit (I mean just a cosmetic makeover) they overcharged. Don't get me wrong iOS to me still up there. Blackberry not that convincing; case closed.

Then what? I've heard (and read) that time Microsoft is about to launch their own flagship-not to be associated with Nokia. Tinggu punya tunggu.. Tadaaa! Lumia 950. Kenapa bukan 950XL re: rip-off.

Ringgit not helping either.

It's up to me to make the most of it. So tak guna la menyalak kat sini (bajet ada haters) cons of Microsoft devices sebab semua dalam poket gua beb. Instagram beta? Tak sampai 2 jam pegang dah 2 post dalam account (huh) more than 2 minggu lepas punya post.

Fun part? Learning new OS. Tiles. Beauty of HD. Desktop friendly. Windows 10. Ok kira justify lah kan! :) 



Thursday, January 21, 2016

Malas Nak Explain

Siapa ada pe'el seperti di atas, kita geng! Bukan something yang nak bangga pun, sekadar sifat yang termaktub dan bersebati dalam diri. Boleh ubah dengan usaha dan ikhtiar. Tapi sejajar dengan penibgkatan usia, benarlah bagai dikata, hendak melentur buluh biar dari rebungnya (ada orang buat betul ke?).

Nak explain kenapa malas nak explain pun kau dah malas. To me, everyone is man enough to understand stuff. Which is not true. Ada masa dan tempat kena explain dan kadang-kadang guna je common sense. 

Right before ending of university's life, most of my friends plan to further their career in education line which means becoming a lecturer or teacher. I feel so kesian to my future-non existent students that I decided not to pursue the same. And I'm ok with that. Speaking of U, dulu ada one time one of the lecturer ni tanya opinion on something, aku punya la explain tapi dia reject cakap salah. Bila dia rephrase balik, exactly apa yang aku dah explain sebelum tu. I was like whaaaaattt... Itulah kisahnya. Keep lah your opinion to yourself- until online social media born (!) and booming.

Guess I am not a good explainer and most of the time I will be misinterpreted. 


Monday, January 18, 2016

Temerloh & Kuantan

2016 secara umumnya bermula dengan suram jika bersandarkan keadaan ekonomi semasa semata-mata. Maka kenalah creative sikit. Rancang perjalanan domestik! 

So over the weekend, we decided to go to east coast, Pahang Darul Bauksit. I am so pissed to observe the aftermath, mind you it just a friction of it. Anyway 3 main objectives are to visit a family, attend a wedding and meet friends. So much to-do-tick-person I am, glad all are covered. Sort of mission accomplished. Clap. Clap. Clap.

Good catch up with old friends even though it was a short session. Perhaps for the next visit kena puasa seminggu and spend more that 1N so barulah boleh enjoy Kuantan food fest.

Chop, chop! ManUtd menang 1-0 kat Anfield :) [fake smile]

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Reminder

Yesterday while playing with Amni she giggled (a lot!). My happiness is like that